5. What You Least Expect

Sometimes I worry a lot about things. Many times I have a really good reason to be worried about whatever it is that troubles me. For example Susan from a few posts back actually did end up dumping me. We just made it into the two weeks after "I love you" category. That is improvement but at the same time I still ended up by myself. Hence I had a really well founded fear.

But there are other times when I have a fear of something and it ends up being absolutely nothing. For example, in high school I wanted to join the football team. For some inexplicable reason I thought that my parents would find it to be too dangerous and hence not let me play. I put off telling them for a few weeks. Eventually they found out that I wanted to join the team from my brother and were actually very supportive of my decision to play football.

Unfortunately whether or not the fears were founded or unfounded it doesn't change the fact that I lost sleep over these things and continue to lose sleep over other things. One particular case in point would be what do I do about this girl that I just met at a dance the other night? Do I ask her out again? Does she like me enough to want to go out on another date? what would I do with this girl if she said yes?

A more pressing situation surrounds my research paper. Is my thesis statement good enough? Does it address what I want it to address? Will this be a piece of work that I can in good conscience turn in and say that I gave it my best effort?

Sometimes these situations come up out of nowhere. I worry about them all of the time. One time I had a friend who asked me why I don't get enough sleep. Do I try to solve all the problems in my world all the time or do I just worry too much about the things that aren't that important?

I never expected to have all these things weighing in on my mind, but they are there. In the end I really don't know what I'm supposed to do about every situation that pops up, but it doesn't keep me from trying.