3. The Weight of the World

I swear sometimes I feel like everything going on around me in some way depends on me. I feel like everything is going to fail if I don't do my part. For example at church if I don't get the right guy to teach the lesson everything will be a catastrophic failure. But this doesn't just apply to church. Let's take school for an example. If I don't attend all of my classes and get all of my assignments done perfectly then the world has reached its end. Just thinking about school assignments is enough to keep me up at night.

In the next few weeks I will have a research project due. I am doing my paper on torture but there are a million ways I can take this. I could talk all about the CIA and their use of waterboarding as a means of "enhanced interrogation" or I could talk about military interrogation of detainees during wartime. There are a million ways I could spin it.

I could then augment my argument with some statistics regarding the views of Americans regarding torture. I found it really surprising that 43 percent of Americans find it acceptable and even encourage it. In the end, I am just thinking way too much about all of this. I think it stresses me out and maybe that keeps me up.

Who am I kidding. Even if I didn't have the assignment there would be many other things on my mind for example: Susan dumped me the other day, I have 3 dates planned with different girls, and my new niece is causing problems of her own.

Basically everything has a way of adding to things in my life to the point that I don't think I will ever have a moment of pure bliss and peace. Anyhow it sure helps that I have all the time in the world to think about these things.